To be more precise the question is: What is it that makes me wake up every morning? For whom do I wake up for? Why would I bother?
I have being asking such question over and over in my head after somebody asked such easy yet hard question. I would be hypocrite if I say I wake up because of God or because he calls me to. The truth is he isn't or perhaps I am the one who doesn't hear. I also wake up because of different kinds of reason that do not make sense at all...
i wake up in the morning because I must go to school and do not want to be involve in any problems
I wake up in the morning because I'm starving and want to have a good cigarette
I wake up in the morning because I want to see my dear Luc
See how all of my waking up in the morning involves obligation, addiction, and Love! I then asked questions about
What if i'm no longer going to school and no longer worries about myself getting into troubles
What if I do not have the hunger or ability to afford food or cigarette
What if my lover is no longer by my side
Will I still wake up in the morning if all around my routines are falling?
Such question just made me come to realize that I need a new resolution. That new vision is necessary for me to be able to have a reason to wake up in the morning for.